Butterfingers Day Dreamer

Friday, February 3

A Foe named Betrayal @ 03:29

I feel betrayed ...we've known each other for several months and counting.. but why? after I put like 90% of my trust to you, you betrayed me. big time. you know I am that type of person who wont give my trust easily. you got it, but then you destroyed it. fishh.. It feels like I am a total dumbass moron. fuck.

all of those memories (kunun c ogod) are just too sweet to be forgotten. kik teida teida baa. you betrayed me for the first time. it was when..well it's not to be shared. and the second time is when you hide the truth after you promised me you will tell me if you got it right. you just never knew how much this heart hurts. big time.

therefore, I am befriending with a foe named BETRAYAL. i'm bombard with witty thought. although I am well aware with the consequences if I digress with you. wtf

you...ebelll..

Thursday, February 2

i is ... @ 20:31

I am sad. why? well.. you know, not every stories should be tell tale aite? I am just sad. depress? no. the thing is, I don't know what are these feelings I felt right now. a little of this and that? I am too hurt to feel everything. sometimes I do get pissed with the things happened around me. but I am me, I kept those unhealthy feelings deep inside the heart. in the end, I am the one who get hurt by it. makan dalam kama bilang c ogod.

I just don't know how to describe all of these stupid evil-ish moronic feelings. I tried to talk and tell about it but I just can't. I am bad in expressing feelings via mouth. satanic much? I am the satan to myself.

oh fishh..

Sunday, January 29

yabaaa ==" @ 19:43

sa makin basar baa kunu bilang c anu. wenn, makin membesar pla ko, terlampau ber-CNY ka? deylang. dafuq dislike! yabaa makin basar baa kunu sa ni. mimang baa .. kau kan slim sd. ada shape. ada pantat. sa? yabaa.. macam teteda. teida shape teida apa apa.. phuii!

i'm getting bigger? wtf wtf.. yes.. i gained weight. of course i'm bigger than i used to be. i admit! but please, look at your own self before saying i'm getting fat. although I'm FAT, still...my weight haven't reached 50kilos okayy.. tampaaarrr!

xoxo

you know who you are

Thursday, January 26

T.T @ 23:11

KILL me. Would you? You know, there are times when I accidentally reminisced the past.. I never talked about love problems to my friends. cos there are none to talk about. sometimes I feel the urge to scream. to let everyone knows that I misses you so damn much. you know, you're the only one who drove me crazy about almost everything.

seeing one of my Friend arguing with her boyfie sometimes made this broken heart ached more. I remembered the last time we fought and then everything just gone. it's history. we did not break up like a normal couple did. oh how i miss you. wtf..

i still remember your musical laughter.. your sweet smile and heartbreaking fouls. your stupid jokes. dang! i would do anything just to get you back.. but it is impossible. we will never be together. in another life? how i'd wish we could.

receiving the news of your -------- huhu i can't type it. i just miss you.. no matter what, you'll be the sweetest thing in my life.

fvck we didn't even get to kissed / hugged each other. i sounded like a bitch. wtf i love you.. still... forever..

maybe some of you will say " bodoh juga kw ni wenn, y teida tu nda pyh igt lgi bh. time to move on" well i appreciate it guys but keep the verdicts to yourself.

xoxo

you know I miss you from up there

hmmmm... @ 22:25

I think I'm confused with the situation right now. Aren't you? wtf.. I'm a hopeless romantic. I can't enjoy everything related to LOVE. wtf.. heartless? for God sake please don't turn into a heartless person wenn!

This is why im single. #foreveralone wtf wtf if only he is still here T.T be good querido. te quiero </3 imysm #wthehecktheheartisbroken

xoxo

you know i'm lonely without you

I NO HOLY @ 20:07

I hold grudge towards people. who doesn't? therefore I am not holy. I am evil. but when I do care about that particular person, I will do anything to help them. my rule is simple. you help me, I'll help you. *except killing people*

I am not that type of person who give my forgiveness easily. I admit it. but once I forgive those who sinned against me *atukk, macam tu doa our father in heaven pula kan?* i will forgive them. the problem with me is, I am a forgiver not a forget-er. things would never be the same even though I forgave those who hurt me.

so people! I know there are issues lingering around us right now. I know it's hard to forgive. I know it's hard to act like none had happened. let it be and everything's will be okay.

p/s: teida tujuan buat entri, tapi tangan jajal menaip.

p/p/s: macam santik pula tu gambar kolo letak di baju kan? hmmmm ^_______^

xoxo

you know you owe me

Fvck the Guy @ 18:23

bikin panas! yes, that's the phrase. exactly! why? well lemme tell you. there is this boy. he is wtf only famous for his height. and his body is well~ muscular? fish .. playboy he is. what? i am saying the truth! keep on text-ing me like *wenn..i love you* oh for goodness sake you're such a pathetic asshole. wow, why am I so rude? ngeh~ simple. I do not let my anger out orally. I immortalized them using words. rude words they are. can't take it?? feel free to leave.

if only i can say this to you boy, i will. but i can't. there's too many people attached to you whom will get hurt if i start to destroy you. i can be a destructive machine i tell you. can you just wake up? you can't get every women in the world. you're such a jerk. sudah dapat yang cantik tidak puas hati. masih lagi want other girl. eww~ i dislike you. holy much? mangkali lah kan? tapi teida guna kolo macam tu juga perangai. I am not a holy person i tell you. but I know where I stand. wtf i is committing sins.

can you just wake up? boy?

xoxo

you know who you are

Realize @ 18:05

exactly! agreeing with this statement to the max. some people can stay in our heart, but not in our life. fuglieh truth? yessss.. likewise, some people are meant to fall in love, but not meant to be together. ouch! hurts isn't? i know. .

it is a scary thing *maybe for Gwenn, ONLY* when the heart fell for someone but you can't be with the person due to undeniable facts which involved the people you care and loved so damn much wtf what am i typing? sorry for the un-arranged words. I am not saying that I am the-person-I-am-portraying-here. I know what's on your mind readers. this has nothing to do with me..

people may come and go. only some will stay. the one who stayed is the one who really care and worth trusting too. I can guarantee you that. as for me, I've meet some awesome peoples and few unawesome peoples. the awesome peoples are those who stay true for who they are to me, the one who helped me throughout my ups and downs in life,the one who love me unconditionally. the unawesome hags? wtf their the one who stayed fake towards me. fvck the hell out i am glad i know them cos they made me realize how the world really works. see..i can be evil if i want.

hmmm..

xoxo

you know who you are

I S.U.C.K.S @ 17:43

morning earthures! i sucks! BIG TIME. how on earth can i forgot my email and password for my newly made blog? shits. therefore this is my new account. wtf i hate it when i forget things. silly much? no, it's stupid. Alzheimer? maybe. fish..

so, this blog is a little bit monotonous. so me? wtf i don't know. but i do love black and white wtf wth am i rubbishing around. oh God i destroyed English. forgive me MOE. wtf wtf this is not right.

xoxo,

you know you love me

Shitloads. @ 17:20

Morning earthtures! how are you today? I am fine btw. ^^ wtf I am not T.T ..

things between us are getting complicated. THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LOVEY DOVEY STORIES. wtf complex shits.

ignore the lines. so what am I going to do today? simple. sleep and sleep and sleep. my throat is getting bigger swollen. swelling throat is no good. no good no good! can't eat chocos wtf can't drink mulberry juice wtf can't get le crunchy chipsmore rollercoaster-ing through my throat. wtf holiday much? shits.

as the saying goes, enjoy everything in life as none will last forever. paradox much? wtf. fine life, I will enjoy you to the max. and I mean it. ignore those stupid things. ignore those morons. and ignore you. not you you. it is you you. won't let you get into my red carpet anymore. and dear you, we had had enough with this bullshits pop-ing up. you are allowed to go if you want. i don't give damns bout it. *the truth is I still give those damns to you.* pathetic.

being single is fun! I tell you, it is fun. if you know how to enjoy it. of course being in a relationship with someone is better. i've been there. i know. ^______^ but for better or worst, I decided to be single as long as I want. the truth is this heart is still frozen. ==" there's no such thing as a frozen heart. too long in the fridge? wtf shits pop-ing out here fellas. feel free to leave.

what is my main purpose here? none! i post random things! ngahahah!

p/s: y u did this to me? wtf.

xoxo,
you know you love me